In his Christmas Eve Broadcast in 1939, King George VI quoted these words: “And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year: Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown. And he replied; Go into the darkness and put your hand into the hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way.”
2009 will undoubtedly be a year of big decisions.
My family most likely faces the start of a 15-month deployment to Iraq for Brandon, and upon his return, a re-location to a new military post. Although our move will occur in 2010, the decision about where we may go must be made now. In the past, we always faced these moves with an adventurous spirit: Let’s go overseas! How about this country or that – how cool! Let’s go where the weather is warm, where we can travel…
Now our moving decisions come down to a few questions: How are the schools – are there any for children with low-functioning autism? What are the state laws like regarding special needs? How is the medical care? Are there good, cutting-edge doctors?
The not-knowing can be torturous for the control-freak mama. I’m the control freak and my husband is the planner-fixer. I realized recently how much Brandon thinks about what will come – what may come – when he sat across from me at Olive Garden. With his heart in his eyes, he asked me, “What do you think is going to happen to Rhema?” There was vulnerability, anguish, fear… and, still, hope.
We used to be Invictus personified, he and I. We were the captains of our ship, the masters of our fate. God is teaching us, through autism, to be wholly dependent on a sovereign God to direct our path. “In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.” Prov 16:9
I can list story after story of how God has faithfully guided and provided for us. When we were returning to the States after 3 years in Germany, we had no idea the medical issues Rhema would face. But the Lord went before us and put us exactly where we needed to be. If left to our own devices, we would have surely botched things. Rhema is currently in a school that has a 5-year waiting list; Rhema got in in 3 months. There’s no question in my mind of God’s favor.
So as we enter the new year, we will prayerfully and carefully craft our plans. But we will lift them to the Lord with open hands… As we learn to love the dreams that He has dreamed for us.
Maybe as you stand at the gate of the year, you too will the appreciate the unknown and hold fast to the hand of God – that is my hope for all of us.
The LORD will guide you always…
And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.