My little Hope and I go down to the boat ramp just to watch the vessels on the water.
I want her to know what real hope looks like. Not just a wish or fancy, but an abiding, unshakeable expectation.
It’s peaceful just now, though wind and tide have rocked the boat.
I know of storms raging
family without power
homeless men in the subway
heartache of friends
pressures at work
babies battling cancer
a beloved aunt in her last days
I know of chaos and confusion, weakness and regret.
We should surely sink.
And yet we are held fast.
I read aloud to her the passage from my morning study – shared with a dozen women in a circle huddled over Bibles, in their own storms:
“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf.” Heb. 6:19-20
In the stillness I ask her,
“You know what an anchor is, right?”
“Yeah, it keeps the boat from going away.”
“But Mama, what’s our soul?”
“It’s like the deepest part inside you. Everything you think and feel and know and makes you you. With God, our souls have an anchor.”
“Like the boat.”
“Like the boat. Hope keeps our souls from going away.”
It’s my day off from work and I cherish our time together – we talk and talk and talk and eat McDonalds, bounce around the gym and practice for piano. We pick up a happy Rhema from school. She’s had some tough days lately, but when I put her to bed she thrills me unexpectedly with a beautifully clear “night night” and “luh yew” (love you). I seriously kick up my heels as I close her door – no medical report or school evaluation or future fear can steal the joy from the moment. And then the husband refuses to be lazy about me. He fights the weariness and frustrations of the day and all the words unspoken; he finds new ways to connect and I know I am loved.
It’s the hope of heaven. It’s God’s good gifts I’m counting in the wind. All of it, anchoring.