“The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever.” (Is. 40:8)
I still say her verse to every night as I put her to bed.
I still pause at the end of each sentence, waiting, hoping she’ll whisper the Word. Like she once did.
She no longer says the words, but I am certain now that she still knows. This Word is in her heart.
(She gives me pause. I can say all the right things, the holy talk I’ve known since I was young. But is it engraved in my heart? Do I know it, believe it in the deepest places?)
One day she’ll speak them again.
As I’ve filled out oodles of paperwork for respite care, and completed phone interviews and home visits, a common question has been “Is there a history of seizures?”. Followed by “What exactly is Landau Kleffner syndrome?” I’ve given the textbook answer: a rare seizure disorder that affects the parts of the brain that control comprehension and speech; sleep often activates these epilepsy waves in children with LKS.
And each time I explain it I can picture an image of the brain, the highlighted areas – the Broca’s and Wernicke’s areas – the centers for understanding and language production. I envision the continuous electrical storm right there, in her head, how it deafens, interrupts, scatters, silences words.
Then I am amazed at God, amazed that this ever happened.
We only speak because He gives us voice.
Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent… I am slow of speech and tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth?… Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will be with your mouth and will teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:10-12
Oh, how we have seen Him ‘with her mouth.’
I posted the video clip below a year and a half ago, and I’ve linked to it several times.
You might have seen it, heard it.
Here I am posting it again just to remember that anything is possible.
“The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart, that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Rom. 10:8,9)